Ever since Faith went to Heaven, I have felt like laying in bed and crying all day every day. However, this is something that I simply cannot do. If you have lost a child, you know what I mean. Sometimes getting out of bed is a huge feat. Taking a shower makes me feel accomplished some days.
I know that everyone’s loss experience is different. However, there is one thing that is the same, the grief is immense. You can fill all of your time during the day to keep your mind occupied. That has helped me a lot during the day.
However, when the day is through, then comes the night…in more ways than one. My mind slows down for the day and I cannot stop myself from thinking of Faith. I love her more than life itself. I want nothing more than to hold her in my arms everyday. But, I cannot. That is reality.
The reality is that every day I feel like staying in bed every day and being depressed. But for my sake, my husband’s sake, Faith’s sake, I simply cannot and must not do that. Faith’s life must be a blessing and a light for others as long as I am on this earth.
Is it difficult, YES. Is it depressing, ABSOLUTELY. But the bottom line is this, all of us that have experienced this great loss, MUST not stay in bed. We must reach out to others in need. Love people, help people, share with people.
2 thoughts on “Lay in Bed”
It's so very hard, and that is exactly what I did….stayed in bed, I don't even know for how long, a couple of weeks at least. Such a perfect title. Thank you for sharing with us all Sara. My Best friend is going through this at this moment, I will share your blog with her. Much love to you and Owen. xoxo Little Faith has her wings and you will see her again. Know that. <3
Thanks so much Molly. I am so sorry for your loss. You are most welcome for sharing. I am sorry to hear that your friend is going through this right now as well. Please feel free to send her to my blog, Facebook page, etc. I would be more than happy to talk to her or message her. She can message me any time. Much love to you!