(Last Updated On: May 16, 2017)
I am sitting on our love seat and holding my Comfort Bear from Sufficient Grace Ministries
in our dining area. I enjoy sitting here frequently, as it is a very comfy place to relax. I am thinking about my day today…
This afternoon I was sitting outside. I really enjoy looking at and watching the small lizards that run around everywhere here. So I was enjoying the afternoon and watching a lizard. I then had an overwhelming feeling of being out of place; not geographically, but in general.
As I ponder my “out of place” feeling today, I realize I have felt that way since Faith went home to be with The Lord. It really is a great way to express how I feel a lot lately. I was on a clear path until a huge stumbling block (to say the least) was placed in my life. Unfortunately I was not given a choice on the path to choose.
I understand, now, more than ever, the feeling of being out of place.
Please do not get me wrong. I know that I am still very blessed and have a lot to be thankful for in this life on earth.
I also know that I feel like a mother and at the same time I don’t. It is very strange. I see people pregnant and having babies all around me and while a part of me is thankful for their life and blessing, my heart is so torn that they get to have their babies and I do not have mine.
So, when I think about this feeling I am experiencing on my grief journey, I suppose I couldn’t put it much better than “out of place”. A huge piece of my heart is with Faith in Heaven now, so this feeling I have is very accurate, in that a piece of my heart is truly…
Out of Place…