Reflection was yesterday’s Capture Your Grief topic. Today, I will again go question by question on this topic, since there are only a few questions and I think it’s the easiest route…
Q: What is your relationship with grief like right now?
A: My relationship with grief now is one of co-existence. I don’t know how to explain it any differently than that. I live with grief every day. I do not WALLOW in grief, but it is a part of me now.
Q: Is it still the same?
A: No, it is not the same. I believe my grief changes on a daily basis.
Q: Has anything changed?
A: Yes. My grief is constantly changing. Most of the time I try to focus on the wonderful time I was able to spend with Faith and my love for her.
Q: What have you learned about yourself and your grief?
A: I have learned so much about myself and my grief since Faith died. I have learned that you can learn to live with grief in your everyday life without it overcoming you. You control it (most of the time). A lot of the time I can choose to have a good cry session to get out some needed grief.
Q: Did you love anything about this project?
A: I love the fact that this project has given me the time out to think about Faith and to think about my relationship with her. I also love that this project has given me something to give myself as a goal and I have actually done it!
Q: What did you find difficult?
A: Some days I found it difficult to take the time out to do my blog post for this project. However, the couple times that I didn’t do the post I caught it up on the next day, which is great for me! I found it difficult to sit down and really focus on Faith. Not that I don’t think of her VERY frequently, but since I am so busy I don’t often make the time to just focus some much needed time on my relationship with her and my grief for her.