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A Faith-Shaped Hole in My Heart
Faith-Shaped Hole This post may contain affiliate links. Please read my Disclosure for more information. I will always have a Faith-Shaped hole in my heart. For those of you who have lost a child(ren), you know what I mean. For those of you who haven’t, please allow me to explain. Earlier this evening, my husband, our daughter Joy, and I were hanging out in the bedroom watching a Christmas movie. We talked about Faith and how she would be laying right next to Joy in the bed with us if she were here. It was a very difficult moment for both of us. I know we will always have a…
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Life Goes on Today without Faith
Life Goes On Life goes on today without Faith. Even though this is the case, life today without Faith, was a very good day. We went shopping and got some things we needed. Then we came home and my husband made some wonderful vegetable soup. We had a great time playing with Joy. I also did some laundry (this just reminded me that it needed to go in the dryer!). Work So, now I am trying to get some work done at my desk in my office. I’ve gotten a few things done for my current projects: working on a website, brainstorming ideas for my new blog, thinking of how…
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Missing Faith
As we draw near to Joy’s first birthday, I have been thinking about and missing Faith. I cannot help but miss her and think of what she may be like today. She would be 2 years and 3 months old now. I know she is a wonderful big sister and she would be a great one here if she were here. We moved in June to IL to be close to my family with a lot of cousins that are around Joy’s age so she can grow up around family. It is also a much more relaxed way of life than living so close to the big city. We both…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 31 – Sunset
Well, today is the last day of Capture Your Grief for this year. Of course the topic is Sunset. I did not get a picture of a sunset here in FL, USA today, although I am sure it was very nice. So, for my picture for today, I am using a picture I took not too long ago in this area, so it is still my picture and it is still around sunset at an area close to where I live! As this project comes to a close this year, I am thankful that I have taken the time to participate. It has been a great time for me to…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 30 – Reflection
Reflection was yesterday’s Capture Your Grief topic. Today, I will again go question by question on this topic, since there are only a few questions and I think it’s the easiest route… Q: What is your relationship with grief like right now? A: My relationship with grief now is one of co-existence. I don’t know how to explain it any differently than that. I live with grief every day. I do not WALLOW in grief, but it is a part of me now. Q: Is it still the same? A: No, it is not the same. I believe my grief changes on a daily basis. Q: Has anything changed? A:…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 29 – (WHY?) What Heals You?
I really like today’s Capture Your Grief topic. The topic is What Heals You?. You can read the history of this topic on Carly’s site in the link above. I have done the Whys and What Ifs many many times since Faith died. I may still every now and then. However, Carly’s idea of focusing her energy on What Heals You? instead is a great idea! The bottom line is I can’t change that Faith is gone. THIS is what happened. So today, in my thinking about this topic, I came up with many things that heal me… The Lord has been with me through every moment of losing Faith…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 28 – Reach Out
Reach Out is today’s Capture Your Grief topic. This evening I was planning to go to bed a bit earlier, however, I wanted to get some work done for someone very special, so I am just wrapping up that work for this evening. I am not going to mention what work it is that I am doing. I will just say that I am currently working with someone on a project and needed to get some things done on said project. It makes me feel very good that this person trusts me with such important tasks that need to be completed. I feel blessed that I am able to help…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 27 – Self Portrait
Today’s Capture Your Grief topic is Self Portrait. This is an interesting topic I think. It forces us to search ourselves and who we are today; looking through the experience of losing our child. Today, I am taking this topic question by question…just to change it up a bit. Here I go! Q: Who am I now in this present moment? A: I can honestly say that I am Sara Bryant, happy wife, happy mom, happy daughter, happy sister, happy niece, happy cousin…I guess I can truly say that I am happy again. I didn’t think I would be able to be happy again after losing Faith, but I am. …
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Capture Your Grief – Day 26 – Gratitude
Gratitude is today’s Capture Your Grief topic. This is a wonderful idea! I am grateful for so many things! I am grateful to be alive, to have a wonderful husband, for having 2 wonderful daughters, Faith in Heaven and Joy here with us, for a wonderful family and great friends, new ideas, new business ideas, a roof over my head, food to eat, my health, the list goes on and on… I believe Carly is very accurate here when she talks about practicing being grateful daily. At first, when you experience the loss of your child, you are doing good to get out of bed. However, gradually, as time goes…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 25 – Earth Remembrance
Earth Remembrance, that is yesterday’s Capture Your Grief topic. I got a day behind, so I am catching up!! Gotta stick with it! Last year, my husband and I planted this beautiful red hibiscus plant in our backyard in honor and memory of Faith. It is now very tall and beautiful. I will have to post a more recent picture of it soon, but wanted to share this picture with this particular post. I really like this picture a lot. I look at myself in this picture and remember that through all the pain of losing Faith, I am still mostly a happy person. Faith still brings happiness to me,…
