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A Faith-Shaped Hole in My Heart
Faith-Shaped Hole This post may contain affiliate links. Please read my Disclosure for more information. I will always have a Faith-Shaped hole in my heart. For those of you who have lost a child(ren), you know what I mean. For those of you who haven’t, please allow me to explain. Earlier this evening, my husband, our daughter Joy, and I were hanging out in the bedroom watching a Christmas movie. We talked about Faith and how she would be laying right next to Joy in the bed with us if she were here. It was a very difficult moment for both of us. I know we will always have a…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 26 – Gratitude
Gratitude is today’s Capture Your Grief topic. This is a wonderful idea! I am grateful for so many things! I am grateful to be alive, to have a wonderful husband, for having 2 wonderful daughters, Faith in Heaven and Joy here with us, for a wonderful family and great friends, new ideas, new business ideas, a roof over my head, food to eat, my health, the list goes on and on… I believe Carly is very accurate here when she talks about practicing being grateful daily. At first, when you experience the loss of your child, you are doing good to get out of bed. However, gradually, as time goes…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 13 – Regrets + Triggers
Today’s Capture Your Grief topic is Regrets + Triggers. I don’t know of any regrets that I have as far as my grief journey. The one major regret that I do have, however, is that I did not insist on having some of Faith’s hair cut off for us to keep. When I asked the nurse, she responded that babies at that gestation don’t really have very much hair. Of course, I didn’t go beyond that at the time. Although, I truly wish I would have insisted and asked for scissors to do it myself. As far as triggers go, what isn’t a trigger? Looking at my husband and living…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 11 – Glow In The Woods
Today’s Capture Your Grief topic is Glow In The Woods. Goodness…so many people have been a light for me on my grief journey since losing Faith…family, friends, etc… My husband has been a great light for me in my journey. He is so loving and supportive. I don’t know where I would be or what I would have done without his love and support. I have read of so many marriages that fail after such a tragedy as losing a child. I am so thankful that God blessed me with Owen. The most important light for me on my grief journey has been The Lord. I have had so many days…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 9 – Family
Family is today’s Capture Your Grief topic. For the sake of time and length, I will focus this blog post to my spouse and children, as I come from a large family and have many cousins, aunts, uncles, etc… I also have a number of close friends that I consider family… Faith is and always will be a special part of our family. She is our first daughter. However, since she now resides in Heaven, my earthly family consists of my husband and our daughter, Joy. They are my loves and mean the world to me. My husband, Owen, is my true love and my best friend. You know that…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 21 – Relationship
Today’s Capture Your Grief prompt is Relationship. I don’t really know where to start on this topic. My relationship with my husband has always been great. It has, however, changed (this is sort-of a given), following our losing Faith. I have a new love for my husband that I never knew before. It is difficult to explain, but anyone who is in this same journey understands. I love him more every day in a new way. Now, to move on to my relationship with Faith. I continue to be amazed at the relationship that I have with Faith, even though she is in Heaven. She teaches me things daily. Faith has…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 4 – Now
Today’s Capture Your Grief prompt is Now. When I think about how to describe myself now, I don’t really know where to start… I think I am much more of a realist than I used to be, but I don’t think that is a bad thing. I look at life through a totally different lense, that is for sure. I have a new love and respect for my husband than I ever had before. It is very strange for me and I almost don’t know how to describe the way I feel, but Faith has brought me a new, better, and stronger love for my husband. Our bond is stronger than ever…
