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A Faith-Shaped Hole in My Heart
Faith-Shaped Hole This post may contain affiliate links. Please read my Disclosure for more information. I will always have a Faith-Shaped hole in my heart. For those of you who have lost a child(ren), you know what I mean. For those of you who haven’t, please allow me to explain. Earlier this evening, my husband, our daughter Joy, and I were hanging out in the bedroom watching a Christmas movie. We talked about Faith and how she would be laying right next to Joy in the bed with us if she were here. It was a very difficult moment for both of us. I know we will always have a…
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Missing Faith
As we draw near to Joy’s first birthday, I have been thinking about and missing Faith. I cannot help but miss her and think of what she may be like today. She would be 2 years and 3 months old now. I know she is a wonderful big sister and she would be a great one here if she were here. We moved in June to IL to be close to my family with a lot of cousins that are around Joy’s age so she can grow up around family. It is also a much more relaxed way of life than living so close to the big city. We both…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 31 – Sunset
Well, today is the last day of Capture Your Grief for this year. Of course the topic is Sunset. I did not get a picture of a sunset here in FL, USA today, although I am sure it was very nice. So, for my picture for today, I am using a picture I took not too long ago in this area, so it is still my picture and it is still around sunset at an area close to where I live! As this project comes to a close this year, I am thankful that I have taken the time to participate. It has been a great time for me to…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 27 – Self Portrait
Today’s Capture Your Grief topic is Self Portrait. This is an interesting topic I think. It forces us to search ourselves and who we are today; looking through the experience of losing our child. Today, I am taking this topic question by question…just to change it up a bit. Here I go! Q: Who am I now in this present moment? A: I can honestly say that I am Sara Bryant, happy wife, happy mom, happy daughter, happy sister, happy niece, happy cousin…I guess I can truly say that I am happy again. I didn’t think I would be able to be happy again after losing Faith, but I am. …
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Capture Your Grief – Day 24 – Choose Your Breath
Choose Your Breath is today’s Capture Your Grief topic. Most days I would say that I have a pretty good handle on where I am in my grief journey. I certainly do believe that grief and healing can co-exist. I believe I am living proof of that fact. While I don’t believe I will ever completely “heal” from losing Faith, I do believe that I am going through a healing process. The Lord has restored so much back to me. He has blessed us with another daughter, Joy, who truly does bring joy to my life every day. She is so wonderful. By NO means does one child ever replace…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 22 – Dreams + Rituals
Dreams + Rituals, that is today’s Capture Your Grief topic. Do I have any dreams for my future? The simple answer to this question is yes. I have many dreams for my future. I would love to see my jewelry business in honor of Faith continue to grow and grow. I also look forward to continuing to see Joy grow and one day to tell her about her older sister, Faith. I also believe that when the time is right, I will be able to help others going through this tremendous loss in some way. I have thought about volunteering for Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep. I have also…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 9 – Family
Family is today’s Capture Your Grief topic. For the sake of time and length, I will focus this blog post to my spouse and children, as I come from a large family and have many cousins, aunts, uncles, etc… I also have a number of close friends that I consider family… Faith is and always will be a special part of our family. She is our first daughter. However, since she now resides in Heaven, my earthly family consists of my husband and our daughter, Joy. They are my loves and mean the world to me. My husband, Owen, is my true love and my best friend. You know that…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 8 – Wish List
Wish List is today’s Capture Your Grief topic. Where do I begin with my wish list for my grief journey? I suppose I want others to remember Faith, first and foremost. I also sincerely want to speak out and educate others about what happened to me and Faith in hopes that we can save other precious babies so that her death will not be in vain. I wish that with every passing day my love and relationship with Faith will continue to grow. I wish to teach our second daughter, Joy, about her big sister when she is old enough to understand. I think I have so many wishes it…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 4 – Dark + Light
Today’s Capture Your Grief topic is Dark + Light. This topic makes perfect sense to me. I have gone through so many emotions and feelings in the time since Faith died. Of course, during the immediate time after she passed, my life seemed only Dark. I did not want to continue living. Looking back, I suppose this is a natural initial response. After some time, I began to see the Light that has come from Faith’s brief life with us. Although, I certainly would prefer for her to be here with us, I have learned so much from her being in Heaven. I see life as so much more precious…
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Scared
Over the last 8 months, I have loved being pregnant with Joy. I cannot believe she will be born in about 6 weeks or less. There have been so many emotions and feelings that have been inside me during this pregnancy. Most of the time, I am beyond thrilled, and extremely happy. However, there are a few times that I have been scared and a small part of me still is…but not for the reason(s) most people would think… I am not scared to give birth, of the pain, of any of that part. That may be crazy, but that doesn’t scare me. I am scared that Joy will…
