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View from the Waiting Room
I was sitting in the waiting room at the hospital to see my MFM specialist earlier today. There were quite a few people in the waiting room. As we were waiting, a man wheeled a Mom & her newborn boy down & stopped to wait for their car to pull up. A lady was with them pushing a cart of the Mom’s belongings & gifts that were sent for them. I had to fight back tears as they sat there. Memories of leaving the hospital last April without Faith flooded me. Someone in the waiting room made a comment that the guy pushing the Mom’s wheelchair has a fun job.…
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Reflections of Mother’s Day
I had a very good Mother’s Day this year. My parents were visiting, so I was blessed to be able to share Mother’s Day with my mother. It was very nice. My wonderful husband gave me a very special card, beautiful roses and a very beautiful charm with Faith’s name and birthday for one of my charm bracelets. I am so excited to be pregnant with Joy, so it was very nice to celebrate Mother’s Day for her. At the same time, I am certain that Mother’s Day will always be a bittersweet day for me. Faith Melody will always be my first daughter, the beautiful girl who made…
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Mother’s Day on the Way
As Mother’s Day approaches again this year, I find myself thinking of Faith, Joy, as well as my Mother, and Mother-In-Law. Last year, we were blessed to spend Mother’s Day with my husband’s mother. It was quite a difficult day, having just lost Faith, but also a special day, as it was my first Mother’s Day. My husband gave me a beautiful yellow rose last Mother’s Day and I will treasure it for years to come. This year, we will be blessed to be able to spend Mother’s Day with my mother, as my parents will be visiting us during that time. I am really looking forward to spending the…
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Capture Your Grief – Day 7 – Sacred Place
The topic for today’s Capture Your Grief is Sacred Place. While I was at work today, a good part of my day was thinking about Faith (big surprise). I must say, though, that what I really wanted to do was to come home and write in the journal that I just started writing in for/to her (special thanks to Carly Marie and the Capture Your Grief project – Day 5). As I was feeling a great need to be at home and write in my journal, I realized that doing so, for me, is like being able to spend time with Faith. I know as the time goes by that…
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Peace & Joy
Yesterday and today I have had a lot of peace and joy from The Lord. That’s not to say that I am not still grieving and missing Faith, because I always will. However, it does give me hope and encouragement to know that I can wake up in the morning and feel the peace and joy of The Lord. For awhile, I really did believe that I wouldn’t enjoy anything in life anymore. It still hurts to see babies, and I am sure it will for quite awhile. But I also am thankful for babies when I see them. Also, I am so thankful to be alive, knowing how many…
